Saturday, November 13, 2010


Well, I've hit 8 days post-op. I'm scared. I can't seem to get enough to eat sometimes.
Sometimes, I am completely satisfied and others it's like I'm ravenous. It makes me feel like I did pre-band.
My family went to dinner tonight and I had three bowls of potato soup with crackers!! I felt like a disgusting, fat pig. I felt like a failure and that I'm never going to win.

In other news,  I'm getting a promotion at Lane Bryant! I'm the new Asst. Manager. I don't want to wear their clothes anymore.

I have a man who loves me. His children love me. I would do anything for a friend. I'm a hard-worker. Why is my relationship with food the only thing that I let define me?


  1. Stay positive... It's going to work.. Give yourself and your new band-friend some time to get acquainted!

    Congrats on the promotion!! And, keep smiling - you're going to get there!

  2. Bandster hell! You're in it! Don't fret, you will make it I know!

  3. It's early days, you have no restriction, you're doing great.

    Congrats on the promotion! You're working on your issue with food, be kind to yourself.

  4. Don't be so hard on yourself. What you are feeling is completely normal. So much so it has a name - bandster hell. I know it's easier said then done, but try not to get depressed. It will just make you want to eat more. At least, that's how it works for me.

  5. This time, so early on with no restriction, just sucks. Take it easy on yourself. Use this time to do your best - pay great attention to what you're doing and what you're feeling when you do it. And give yourself a break. I promise it gets easier!

  6. My dear, you are in Bandster Hell. These next few months are going to be tough. Just get in an exercise routine and try to make healthy choices in food. However, don't expect your appetite to be much smaller than it was before surgery.

    We're pullin' for ya!

  7. It WILL get easier! I swear that we all think that we're the one that surgery won't work for.