Wednesday, November 17, 2010

I have the day off...

and I'm taking full advantage. I walked my dog, am currently catching up on missed episodes of Law and Order: SVU, and drinking my weight in water. Well, maybe not my weight, but I'm drinking quite a bit.

I'm a little concerned about my port incision. It's red and it itches like CRAZY! I called the doctor's office and they told me that unless it was "coke can red" then it was fine, and that it would be tender and itchy for at least 3 weeks. I'm going to let that answer ride for a little longer.

I've decided that I'm going to re-think my approach to my new lifestyle. Instead of eyeballing doritos, bread, and all of the other things that my family eats daily, I'm going to think completely about me. Is it just me, or do any of you other women feel like you are the only one who can feed your family? When your man is completely capable. I feel that if I make it home before him, then I should start dinner. Anyone else think like that or used to think like that? How did you change?

I was in the habit of weighing every single morning. For the first week, it was awesome. I was averaging 2 pounds a day. I hit 17 pounds lost and then I started grazing. I put 5 pounds back on quick and the weight loss stopped. I was lying to myself and saying that because I only ate "a little bit" that it didn't count. Well, obviously it did. My sister is the picture of perfection with her band. I try not to compare myself to her, but it's hard when I feel like I'm screwing this up on purpose.
I don't know what happened in my head today but I wanted to share with you. I've not posted in a few days because I've been ashamed. All of you guys seem to have it all under control and so in charge of your band.

All of your words of encouragement are awesome. Thank you. I hope to post more pictures and I hope that my ticker will move again!!!


  1. don't worry about your port's going to itch!!

  2. Do you still have the steri-strips on your incision? I had an allergic reaction to them which made it super red and itchy. The surgeon's office told me to take them off, and it felt better almost immediately.

    As soon as I went from liquids to mushies, my wl, which had been daily, stopped and reversed a little. Your body is going through a lot right now, so you can't beat yourself up!!! I stopped the daily weighing, and am now a 2-3 times a week'er. It allows me to keep close tabs on things, without the daily fluctuation that can be so frustrating.

  3. Sounds like you might be hitting Bandster Hell. That's the time between surgery and the first fill when you essentially have no restriction and have lost some of the enthusiasm you might have had at the beginning. Just hang in there! This is a normal part of the process.

    Hope your incisions feel better!

  4. Thanks for your comments the other day on my blog. It was nice to hear that someone else went thru it too. But this is where I am right now....feeling very hungry, that I could eat anything I want and not get stuck...that I'm not doing it right and going to gain weight. Not too mention I'm still in tons of pain. This "yellow brick road" is not as easy as I thought it would be! Glad we're in it together!