Time has flown...

It's been a really long time since my last post. I went through an "adjustment period" where I wasn't sure that I had made the right decision. I mean, I paid all this money out of pocket and all I wanted to do was eat! I was hungry for all the wrong things. It took talking to my doctor and my sister to snap me out of it. I was treading water and not losing any weight! I looked back at all my food logs and just laughed and then got pissed. I had wasted SO much time, with the mentality of "I can get back on track tomorrow". Yea, well, two weeks of tomorrows had gone before I knew it.

I'm proud to say that I'm almost 50lbs down and looking forward to another 50. I keep reading your blogs and they are very inspirational. Keep it up, ladies. You all are fabulous.

Making it a habit.

I bought a copy of Tosca Reno's Eating Clean cookbook. I attempted the first recipe last night. It was chicken fajitas. They were really good. My boyfriend even enjoyed them. That was the easiest recipe in the whole book. Everything else contains ingredients that I've never heard of. Luckily, Kroger has a decent organic section. I still have to go to Whole Foods to get a few special things. I think to myself that I am still paying for this band. It is so much more expensive to eat healthy than it is to buy junk. When I buy the processed stuff for my family, I sometimes find myself jealous that I can't be that easy. I really have to sit down and PLAN my meals. I panic if I don't have something prepared in the fridge to eat.

I made an organic breakfast pudding this morning and it was really good. I'm waiting my hour before I can drink and then I'm heading to the gym. I've put myself on a pretty rigorous training program.

6 days a week, I'm at the gym.

I do an hour of cardio every other day.
I work arms and legs on the other days.

I'm hoping to prevent too much loose skin. I know I'm going to have it but I'm going to try to have as little as possible.

I still look into my closet and I can't wait to wear my old clothes; I can't wait to get rid of the current ones.

My birthday is the 19th. I'm excited but a little part of me is sad because I'm turning 29. I know I shouldn't be but I can't help it.

Replies.

You ladies are the best. Those were awesome comments and made me feel so much better. I always forget how much better I feel after I hear from y'all.

I'm sore today from the consistent working out. I love how being sore feels. It makes me feel alive.

Tonight I made whole wheat penne pasta with extra lean ground turkey and light Ragu. I didn't tell anyone in the family what was in it. It's cool to watch them rave over it when my boyfriend says he can't stand turkey meat. HA! I told him at the end of the meal and it went over well. They had garlic bread and I didn't. I only made half a loaf for them so I knew it would all be eaten. Being able to resist garlic bread feels so good. I get a little pep in my step after I successfully resist something.

Oh yea, should I stay away from peanut butter? I have no problem digesting it, just wondering if I should stay away from it.

Again, thanks. Love.

I'm back.

I've been trying to keep busy to keep from thinking of food. Sad, but true. I had my first fill and it was okay. My doctor was upset with me and told me that I wasn't losing weight fast enough. I lost 6 pounds in 6 weeks. Yes, not that great but I was losing. He upset me so badly that I was sobbing and now I'm scared to go back. I know that I have to because I've already paid for a year of checkups and fills. It's a crappy situation.

I've decided to clean out the formal living room and make it a craft room/woman cave. I bought a cheap sewing machine and scrap fabric to practice on.

Also, today starts my training for a 5k. I've done two so far but I've never run one. I'm using a couch to 5k training program. Couch to 5k
It seems slow enough, I just have to tell myself that I can do it.

I'm still here, I've just been reading all of your blogs and taking notes.

It's nearing that time...

for my first fill. My appointment is Monday. I'm really excited to finally feel restriction. These past six weeks have been so hard. Some weeks were better than others. Some days better than others.

So far, I have maintained a 13lb. weight loss. I fluctuate between 13 and 15lbs. lost on a good day.

I wish I had more to post about but I don't.

Oh, one more thing! Is there anyone else out there who just isn't ready for Christmas? I mean, I love Christmas, but it has just snuck up on me this year. Maybe it's because the weather didn't get cold until like a week ago. Maybe it's because I lost my father to Type II Diabetes last December 10th. I've been all over the place emotionally. That's probably the main reason why. A huge motivation to have the procedure done was my father. I didn't want to develop diabetes. It's kind of a Christmas funk, which will hopefully be gone by the big day.

Round Two

Hey ladies! I've been a little distant lately because I've been struggling with healthy eating. I've been ashamed and I'm still trying to shake it off.  Thanksgiving was delicious and unhealthy. I ate everything except bread. I think it opened my eyes and I realized that I shouldn't be able to eat almost two plates! That Saturday was the new start.
I've dusted off my healthy cookbooks and I'm about to head to the store. I realized that I HAVE to be pro-active with this. It's like all you have said, I'm stuck smack in the middle of bandster hell. Hell is a perfect word because I want to eat everything!

So, I've re-stocked the fridge with cottage cheese, fruit, yogurt, and juices. I realized that eating almost an entire sleeve of wheat crackers with my soup was probably not the best idea. Damn, it was good, though.
My sister hit 16lbs lost and that was like a slap in the face.
I decided to stop fighting against Bandy and start listening to him.

Christmas cards!

We took our family Christmas picture yesterday and I'm getting so excited! I love the holidays. It's the only time of  year that I stops focusing on my image hang-ups and just enjoy the season. It's weird but true. 

I've just really been coasting through this hell that I'm in. Awaiting my first fill.
Until next time, here's a look at my family.

 Did someone say PRESENTS?!